Based on your smile...

My head is a whirl of thoughts. It has been a while since my head has been spinning with these thoughts and what ifs. I don't know what to do. I am confused... mostly because not only is my head spinning with these but also the old ones whitch makes my head a blender. It is hard to sort all of these things out. I know I am insane and way to analytical of EVERYTHING... sometimes I wish I was just really easy going and not a nervous wreck.... which i am most of the time in my head... Right now I am in my I wish stage... where I wish I was more this or more that.... last night it was my over analizing of events and creating what ifs and scenereios. Later it will be discouragement and then it will be courage... then after that it will be restless confusion and then the cycle starts all over.... that is when I don't interact with people... it gets more complicated and moves faster when I am with people... I just don't know... I need to set my course and continue... not let myselg get derailed... man it is only tuesday... i wish it was saturday already.... i only have 7 days of work left! I better get on finding me another job! Things are going really well right now... always could be better but i mean... things can't be perfect right.... my head is fun... sorting things out in there... I am finding alot of things in there that i had forgot about and things i didn't even know were in there... alot of it is confusing because there are a lot of contradictory things in there... its great actually... I can't wait for school to start and to be able to move into my new place. I really hope I can get a dog... I want a dog... I love dogs... anyways I think that is all I am going to write for now but I am sure I will post again soon. Thank you for your time and patience to you people out there who actually read my rants about everything and nothing... some of you know what this is all about... some of you probably have no clue at all... but thats ok...