That's just a Euphemism

Here I am. I am here. Am I unaffected by the winter winds? Or is my soul cold? The dry icy desert that I am trudging through is so lonely. I scream and I yell but nothing leaves my blue lips. I throw my hands in the air almost in defeat but I can't fail, I must fight on. Giving up would be to give up one second too soon. Or do I fight harder to hide that I am really giving up? The winds swirl arund me like a gail of immense proportions. I am buffeted from all sides. Questions arise from questions while answers seem to lurk just out of reach. The sun is out but I miss the rain. The sun causes a glare that blinds me, slows me, makes me realize. Realize what? That I fail? That I am nothing? Everyone is nothing yet something. Something to someone. Yet nothing to everyone. Do you follow? Do you follow the derailed mess? Are you cold? I feel rather warm in this frozen barrens. Content yet so unsatisfied. Must keep trekking on. I don't feel carried. I saw a patch of green today. Hope is in the air. False hope? Does everything spiral into failed attempts? Try and try again. Is it better to be naive and optimistic? Or is it better to be cynical and critical. Good can come from both when channeled properly can it not? If we were not cynical and critical then how would we improve and become better? If we focus on the good but not the bad then the bad sneeks up and destroys us, however if we focus on just the bad we become bitter and worn and consumed by that which we were originally trying to combat. We must rejoice in the good while awknowledging the bad or wrong. Many would like to think of only the happy and good. Put things off, deal with them later. I however take the bad headon. Point out the faults. Learning constructive criticism is the hardest part. Helping not hindering. Leading and guiding not brow beating and condemning. It is much easer to do the latter. Forming, being shaped, coming into the full masterpeice. Counter-balance. Ying to the Yang. Conservative and Liberal. The answer is in the balance. Not candy coating... but in the balance. Maybe you follow, maybe you don't. Questions... ask, answers... give. Interact, seek, never stop seeking.