Bang your head against the wall for good luck

I wanted to write. I wanted to just start and never stop. Spill everything on a blank page. I'm stuck inside my head though. I can't get out. I keep screamin but no sound is emitted from my mouth. I am so depressed yet so happy at the same time. I love myself but yet hate who I have become. I feel that all the friendships I have here are shallow. I miss the deep friendships. I have been hanging out will Phil alot lately and it has been enjoyable, I choose my words carefully.

Amos and Faith came through here on Saturday. I got to hang out with them for a little while. It was so fantastic to see them again. Absolutely wonderful. One of my friends stopped talking to me last week. Still not sure why. I can't wait for this week to be over. To be in my new place and to be in school. I have so much I need to get done this week. I am not looking forward to it. I am so bored right now. I want to be out doing something, but I am not. Instead I am sitting at home again doing nothing. I guess I shouldn't complain. I have been out alot lately. Why am I so depressed right now? I mean I love my life right now... Things are great... well a different great than I used to mean. Maybe thats the issue... Tony Knight is taking over. It is all a process. Things will all work out, I just hope it is soon... before it is too late.