You asked....

but I didn't answer.

Why didn't I answer?! You asked me how I deal with things that bother me. I neglected answering. I negelected answering because something is bothering me and when you asked me that, I thought about how I am handling it now. The way I am handling it is bottling it up. Letting it eat at me while you talk. I know I should say something, but I don't. I just fall inline... say what I should... say what you want to hear. Occasionally I step out and say something... but then we argue and I just give up because I know if we keep going I will have to fix it later. There are alot of things I want to say but I never do. You would get mad and maybe we would never talk again... and so, for some reason, I am happier by letting myself die so that we may live. I'm only happy when it rains.

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I’m only happy when it rains ~ Originally by Garbage (I listen to Richard Cheeses' version)


I’m only happy when it rains
I’m only happy when it’s complicated
And though I know you can’t appreciate it
I’m only happy when it rains
You know I love it when the news is bad
Why it feels so good to feel so sad
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains
I feel good when things are going wrong
I only listen to the sad, sad songs
I’m only happy when it rains
I only smile in the dark
My only comfort is the night gone black
I didn’t accidentally tell you that
I’m only happy when it rains
You’ll get the message by the time I’m through
When I complain about me and you
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour your misery down...pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me...pour your misery down
Pour your misery down...pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me...pour your misery down
Pour your misery down...pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me...pour your misery down
Pour your misery down...pour
You can keep me companyAs long as you don’t care
I’m only happy when it rains
You want to hear about my new obsession
I’m riding high upon a deep depression
I’m only happy when it rains...pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains....pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains...pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains...pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains...pour some misery down on me...
pour some misery down on me...
pour some misery down on me...
pour some misery down on me

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I wish I had wrote that.......
but I didn't...