Time Stands Still

hmm, what to write what to write... I mean I have alot to write... like ussual... but when it comes time to writing it I don't really feel like letting everyone into my head. I mean I do want to get it out on paper... or well written out anways... and I mean I want to share it all with certain people but I can't... why can't I? Well because I am confused. What am I confused about? That is a good question... there are alot of things that I am confused about... and I am not finding many solutions on my search for the answers... but I have realized that it is not really the answers that are the best part but rather the jouney... as cliche as that sounds.... because I am finding more answers for questions I am not asking... so that brings me to the question... Am I asking the wrong questions? hmm... could be I mean contrary to popular beleif... I am fallible and finite and may not know everything... WHAT? did I just admit I don't know everything? yes I did... and actually I don't really know anything at all. Let the events unfold... make the best decisions with the facts you have... and the feelings you feel... I think you need to balance both fact and feeling... you can't rely on one or the other.... you need both... this can be hard... very hard... once again I am sure that you have no idea what my ramblings are or what they mean... but quite often this is more for me than it is for you... so let life take its course... let it flow... use the talents and tools you have been given... I wish I was more forward... no thats not true... (haha I have developed an amos complex... speaking of amos I miss that guy... it is his wedding this weekend HOLY CRAP!){speaking of amos that reminds me of roomates which reminds me of Cody which reminds me that he was here and didn't look my up! I will find you and make you pay... literally... you still owe me 60 bones man!} Anyways back to the rant at hand... which was... oh I forget... thats not true... I think about it alot acutally... well I think about alot of things but this is on track one... the most important track that all the other tracks cross or join or somehow link to... how can this nothingness bring me so much joy... especially when it is nothingness and I know it because... well becuase... maybe it can.... I love pepsi... it is my favourite thing to drink... speaking of pepsi I should go get some food... no I'm not really hungry... I should have got something to eat at Timmy Ho's.... no I wasn't really hungry then either... speaking of which I should blog about my evening... or day...

umm... my day was uneventful... all I did was go to work and work was slow because there were not many kids that showed up.... why? well I am assuming beceause there are some camps going on and the Ex and the Fringe.... so I left work and came home... upon coming home I came onto my comp... chatted on msn for a bit... then called shancelle... I normally would have been with phil because he stops by my work and we go out... but phil is in regina with his girlfriend... anyways... I called Shancelle and she was at young adults... which was at Pastor Johns place... she invited me over there... so I headed on over... ate some pizza... chatted with some people... then decided to leave because I wanted to go and see the show at Louis tonight... From Chimpan A to Chimpan Z was the band I really had wanted to see but alas it was way too late... I was also going to meet up with J-Dizzle but well for some reason I instead stopped at the Fringe to see what was the happy-haps... and well nothing was happening... it was actaully shuttin down... so I decided to walk down Broadway to see if there was anyone around that I knew.... and guess who I run into.... my new friends that I met saturday and went to lunch with on Sunday! We ended up going to Timmy Ho's and hanging out... it was really great... I enjoy them alot... they are awesome people... haha I just realized that someone like... Vanessa... yes you... might be readin this long rant... not looking for points here... I really do think you folks are great and would love to continue to know you better... how do you spell deelia? is that right? I was wondering that the other day... hmm anyways inside out outside in between... I am slightly getting tired... and bored... I need to email Justin... I should do that soon... and I need to go see what P Chappy Chap is up to tommorow... or today rather...hmm making sense much? thats ok... I should go to bed... all of you people out there... sweetdreams... yes you... and goodnight... and welcome to my head!