Is this causing me scarring?
The pain that buckles out your knees
Life. Life is really going really well right now. Actually life is really awesome right now. Maybe that is why I have not been blogging as often as ussual. On the surface everything is fine, actually on the surface things are more than fine. It is on the inside that isn't fine. I don't feel fine. I pine, I whine, I think, I act. The things I want to be awesome and be fine are not fine, but rather far from.
Pressures are really weighing me down. I have a lot of pressures on me. A lot of thoughts that are also pulling on me. A lot of things.
Right now I would like some friends. I mean I have a lot of "friends" and I love them. It is just that not many people are really close to me. Everyone that I use to talk to about my thoughts are all a couple provinces away or have just drifted away. I have a couple that are closer than others but one of them isn't even talking to me. Some just don't understand me. Do you know what I mean? I have lots of friends and they are great but those firends that are really close to you, that just know what you are thinking. Do any of you have friends like that? I know I used to. ( -------------------------------------------------------------------------------fill this in with what I am thinking right now-----------------------------------------------------------------)
I was going to right alot more but I think I am going to just end it there...
Life. Life is really going really well right now. Actually life is really awesome right now. Maybe that is why I have not been blogging as often as ussual. On the surface everything is fine, actually on the surface things are more than fine. It is on the inside that isn't fine. I don't feel fine. I pine, I whine, I think, I act. The things I want to be awesome and be fine are not fine, but rather far from.
Pressures are really weighing me down. I have a lot of pressures on me. A lot of thoughts that are also pulling on me. A lot of things.
Right now I would like some friends. I mean I have a lot of "friends" and I love them. It is just that not many people are really close to me. Everyone that I use to talk to about my thoughts are all a couple provinces away or have just drifted away. I have a couple that are closer than others but one of them isn't even talking to me. Some just don't understand me. Do you know what I mean? I have lots of friends and they are great but those firends that are really close to you, that just know what you are thinking. Do any of you have friends like that? I know I used to. ( -------------------------------------------------------------------------------fill this in with what I am thinking right now-----------------------------------------------------------------)
I was going to right alot more but I think I am going to just end it there...
posted by Ty at 12:26 AM
3 Comments:
ty--
i remember the day that i realized all of my old friends from highschool don't talk to me anymore.
it's different in application, but same in principle; i faced a new era of my life, and each of us (from highschool) went about this era in a different way. new friends had to be made.
to this day, however, i have yet to make any friends like i had made before; the thought of pouring into just to watch them drift away, is painful.
in fact, i have accepted that i am a reserved man, and that i don't open up often, if at all, and that is OK.
you are not alone in your search for familiarity and comfortability in this world.
I have a link! I have a link! When did this happen? I love it! Under the category of "Insanity": CRAZYNESS!! Ha ha!
I know what you mean. This after highschool thing is a process. It took me years to get over. Don't expect yourself to be a certain way or have a certain number of friends. Who cares what anyone thinks. I am your friend, and I get the things that you don't say. As friends should. I'm not sure why, but we get each other that way, even if we haven't known each other long, or ever see each other.
You're the bomb.
I love the dialogue between yours and Ty's MSN sign in names.
Oh and P.S. The fill in the blank: You were thinking: "Hee hee, I am very clever."
Long live EmoBoy!
i think you have confused me for someone else...
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