The Day The Shadow Was Released

I ask you, "How could you understand? How could you understand the way I feel about god... How could you understand anything, about me at all..."

You just stand there and shrug your shoulders with the same unknowing look on your face that you always have when I see you. I tell you, "I am the wind, singing a sad song. I am a volcano, and i'll hurt you all."

You just smile like I said something funny. You tell me "Everything will be ok." Who are you to know? If you only knew what happened... My pride, ripped a hole in the world that set loose...




A shadow!





So you tell me how could you understand the way I feel about god! How could you understand anything, about me at all! I told you I am the wind, singing a sad song, a volcano, and I will hurt you all.

But will you listen? Do you hear the words I say? You are caught up in your rightiousness, too busy to notice. Too busy weaving a web of lies, self destruction. While you destroy yourself through denial I destroy myself through reality. How could you understand? I watch as illows and billows of smoke rise above the ruined ashes. I sail, to jaws of the dragon. I see the beast before me: A shadow, behind me and the only certainty is that I'll hurt you all... That I will hurt myself.