Why be Happy when you can be Sad?

Midterms are over but the stress is justing starting for me. I have quite a few big assignments due next week that I haven't even started on. Why have I not started on them you may ask. Well the answer to that is I am a slacker... also known as a procrastinist. My problem is not procrastination though. I have another trait that hinders me. It does not go well with being a procrastinist. It becomes very contradictory and frustrating. Why? Well because I am also a perfectionist. If I can't do it 100% I don't want to do it at all. Which triggers the lack of motivation in the procratinist part of me causing me to quit or not care. This has posed some pretty huge set backs to me. It gets really frustrating. It effects all aspects of my life.

I love my job. But I am tired of working.
I love my classes. But am tired of learning.
I love my life. But am tired of living.

"...Lifes been killing me ever since it begun, you can't blame me because I'm too young." Cookie Jar ~ Jack Johnson

Wow. Smoke and mirrors. Tricks and turns. Start there, end here. That was a jump. Too many thoughts.