Still nothing

It's been over a week... still nothing... blank

Busy

I am pretty busy. I think I may have a job! I don't know yet. I am tired. (I think) I have a good post brewing but it will come later. Goodnight!

Now you have gone and done it...

Ok, before I go off on my little rant I would like to thank you spamming imbeciles who splattered my blog with your neo-nazis bull shit for pushing me into posting a worthwhile post. Now onto what this is really about. I am sick and tired of all of you idiots out there who spam blogs or emails or mailboxes or whatever have you, with things like "check out my vase collection online" or "send $20 to this address to recieve your earn money fast start up kit" Do you not realize that I DON'T CARE! I don't care if your passion is coins, or adware remover, or your home based business that is run out of your bassment and only appeals to similar minds as your self... SUCH AS COMPLETE MORONS! Why would my blog make you think that I am interested in any of this crap!? Stop trying to get more hits on your site or expand your friend network because if all you have to say is "Duh great blog me like. Now you check me site now." then I want nothing to do with you. If you genuinly like my site then by all means leave a post but the comment area already links me to your blog so if I want to check out your blog then I will ok? Don't you people have better things to do? Next thing that irriates me, possibly even more than the spamming idiots, are the people who actually do check out a site about coins or stamps or underwear. Why did you go and look at their site? because you were told to? I mean what kind of mindless dribble do you deal with in your life that going to a blog that talks about tupperware excites you? Come on people, they spam because they get hits they get hits because you are more stupid then they are! Don't give in! Don't let your life be run by small time product pushers... or corporate pushers for that matter. Use your brain! This leads me to people who are psuedo-intellectuals and pride themselves on being able to point out your spelling mistakes or grammatical errors. I know you think you are smart and you feel good using big words and correcting others but you dam well better know what the words mean. You may have trained your brain to see errors in others but you still can not think for yourself. FREE YOUR MIND think about the meanings behind the words and statements. Dont get so caught up in the fact that the punctuation is wrong... look for the point... think about it... Einstien couldn't even tie a shoe and I am not concerned with proper grammer. While I am making mistakes in my grammer you are making mistakes in your life. Like sleeping with that person from the bar that looks like they were the origin of the HIV. Maybe your problem is alienating your friends and making them feel like trash. I don't know about you but I would sooner speell a word wrong or misuse punctuation rather than be an idiot without common sense... So in conclusion don't correct me on my grammer you are an idiot, do not spam my blog because you are an idiot, and most of all do not support the people spamming and most definately do not put up with small minded people who have nothing better to do than criticize your spelling while being unable to hold down a job... they are idiots...

yes I do feel better
I think this would have made more sense if I had not typed it up so late...
need sleep

Empty

I should be doing homework right now. There are some things I should get done. Unfortunately I am not in a working mood. I am in a sleeping mood. I don't feel like doing anything at all right now. Including this. So I think I am going to stop. Blah... Thoughts in my head... go away... What if... please... blah

To Err is Human

We strive. Strive for perfection. Strive for more. Strive for love. Why is it so? What do we gain? Do these things we strive for improve our lives? In the short term the obvious answer is yes. Love, perfection, and the pursuit of material possesions make us happy and improve our lives. Really? Love hurts, we have all been hurt by love, I think it may be inevitable to escape the pain that love causes. Stuff? Stuff is stressful. The more stuff you have the more you have to worry about. Theft, damage, out of date. You need things like insurance. You need to worry about repairs and warranties. Then there is the cost of just keeping things running. Electricity, Gas, Maintainence. And now Perfection. We can't be perfect people but yet we try, always trying to better and improve onesself. If we don't live up to the standards we set or others set then we deal with depression and angst and worry. Are we as good or smart as the next person? Are we as attractive or active? Talented? All of these things bring worry into our lives. Uneeded and Unwanted stress, However, these are the things that we seek everyday. Maybe instead of seeking to be perfect we need to seek the Perfect. Maybe instead of more things for ourselves we should worry about the ones who have nothing. Maybe instead of striving for love we should strive to love. Maybe we need to forget who and what we want and just be who and what we are. Strip away technology, strip away buildings, strip away attitudes. Lets get to the core. We can't. We don't like who we are without our things, our love, our perfection. We also can't face who we are with them... but it is an easier illusion to face. To numb ourselves into complacency. To forget what we really are here for. To change our responsibility. But it is human to err. We prove that everyday. We hate but yet we would have it no other way. To be human is now an excuse.

Maybe I 'm wrong, I mean, I am only human...

That's just a Euphemism

Here I am. I am here. Am I unaffected by the winter winds? Or is my soul cold? The dry icy desert that I am trudging through is so lonely. I scream and I yell but nothing leaves my blue lips. I throw my hands in the air almost in defeat but I can't fail, I must fight on. Giving up would be to give up one second too soon. Or do I fight harder to hide that I am really giving up? The winds swirl arund me like a gail of immense proportions. I am buffeted from all sides. Questions arise from questions while answers seem to lurk just out of reach. The sun is out but I miss the rain. The sun causes a glare that blinds me, slows me, makes me realize. Realize what? That I fail? That I am nothing? Everyone is nothing yet something. Something to someone. Yet nothing to everyone. Do you follow? Do you follow the derailed mess? Are you cold? I feel rather warm in this frozen barrens. Content yet so unsatisfied. Must keep trekking on. I don't feel carried. I saw a patch of green today. Hope is in the air. False hope? Does everything spiral into failed attempts? Try and try again. Is it better to be naive and optimistic? Or is it better to be cynical and critical. Good can come from both when channeled properly can it not? If we were not cynical and critical then how would we improve and become better? If we focus on the good but not the bad then the bad sneeks up and destroys us, however if we focus on just the bad we become bitter and worn and consumed by that which we were originally trying to combat. We must rejoice in the good while awknowledging the bad or wrong. Many would like to think of only the happy and good. Put things off, deal with them later. I however take the bad headon. Point out the faults. Learning constructive criticism is the hardest part. Helping not hindering. Leading and guiding not brow beating and condemning. It is much easer to do the latter. Forming, being shaped, coming into the full masterpeice. Counter-balance. Ying to the Yang. Conservative and Liberal. The answer is in the balance. Not candy coating... but in the balance. Maybe you follow, maybe you don't. Questions... ask, answers... give. Interact, seek, never stop seeking.

I AM WATCHING YOU

Word of the Week

but you must pronounce it HOE-LEE
draw it out too... Hooolyyy as some people would type it... even though that doesn't really make sense... silly people.

HOLY

The Word of the (Yester) Day Was...

HOLY

Hectic

Wow. What a crazy last couple of days. My head hurts. I have been moving ever since the thirty first. I packed everything up on the 31st and then into my new place a couple hours later. I had 3 hours of sleep. It was insane. I was originally supposed to move in here on the first but I called my site manager and she let me move in a day early. I was so thankful because I had no idea what I was going to do with my stuff overnight, let alone where I was going to sleep!

On the first I helped phil move all of his stuff over and then we started painting. We spent all of the first painting and most of the 2nd painting as well. Now we are working on setting everything up. Phil has most of his stuff set up, but I need to wait until Sunday because that is when my parents will be bringing me a smaller bed. You see, my queen size bed does not fit in down into my room. Ok well the mattress fits down here but the box spring does not. That is the first part of my dilemma. The second part is that if I were to keep the mattress then I would have to sacrifice a desk. So yea, anyways... I need sleep.