Gatsby's American Dream Lyrics
Just Like Heaven Lyrics

[Originally by The Cure]

Show me, show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream she said
The one that makes me laugh she said
And threw her arms around my neck
Show me how you do it
And I promise you, promise that
I’ll run away with you
I’ll run away with you

Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow
Why are you so far away? she said
Why won’t you ever know that I’m in love with you
Oh I’m in love with you

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You’re just like a dream

Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Just like heaven



Ok So I have been sitting down trying to type something, anything and nothing has been good enough for me to write... except for now... this song is.... phenominal.

Pulp Fiction

Do you read the bible Ringo?
Not regularly no.
Well there is this passage I got memorized.

Ezekiel 25:17.

"The path of the righteous man is beset on
all sides by the inequities of the
selfish and the tyranny of evil
men. Blessed is he who, in the
name of charity and good will,
shepherds the weak through the
valley of darkness, for he is truly
his brother's keeper and the finder
of lost children. And I will
strike down upon thee with great
vengeance and furious anger those
who attempt to poison and destroy
my brothers. And you will know my
name is the Lord when I lay my
vengeance upon you."

I've been saying that shit for years and if you heard it that meant your ass. I never gave much thought to what it meant, I just thought it was some cold blooded shit to say to a mother fucker before I popped a cap in his ass. Well I saw some shit this morning that made me think twice... see now I'm thinking maybe it means your the evil man and I am the righteuos man and mister 9mm here... he's the shephard protecting my righteous ass in the valley of darkness or it could mean your the righteous man and I am the shephard and its the world that is evil and selfish. Now I like that. But that shit ain't the truth. The truth is your the weak and I am the tyranny of evil men, but I'm trying Ringo, I'm trying real hard to be the shephard.

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Pulp Fiction... again a lot of language but one of the best movies ever!

... but I'm trying... I'm trying real hard to be the shephard... the goings not easy... I didn't expect it to be.... but I never anticipated things would be this hard... but I'm trying, Lord knows I'm trying.

GSF (Girls Schmirls Foundation)

You didn't have to be to mean to me I guess now I see
how it's gonna be

I'm joining GSF, I've made up my mind, forget this they call
love
It's a waste of time yeah, yeah waste of time

Girls ain't no good anymore, anyway
Not for one second have I understood
why they do what they do, why they say what they say

You can all go away

Always happens to my friends, always happens to me
It's taken me nineteen years to finally see
She said "can we just be friends, it's just not working out"
Another broken heart that I can do without. Do without

Yeah

Girls ain't no good, anymore, anyway
Not for one second have I understood
why they do what they do. Why they say what they say.

MxPx

March 7th.... 2006.... Prarieland Exibition.... Saskatoon, Saskatchewan... Mxpx will be

Sitting at my computer desk. Work in half and hour. Not sure what to type. Had some ideas but they just don't seem good enough. Valentines Day today. No Plans. Have to work most of the day anyways. Want to leave. Want to up and leave and not tell anyone. Not that many people would notice me gone, but it wouldn't be so that they notice. It would be so that I would notice. Wish I had the money to go where it rains instead of snows. Hide in a mountain for a while. This is more depressing then I expected it to be. Honestly, I'm not really depressed I am more frustrated. Frustrated with lots of things. If you can't get ahold of me it's because I left.

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The Truth About Heaven

Walk past my grave in the dark tonight,
Saw the stone and the note you left for me,
to answer your question I just had to leave,
I just had to leave,

But that's not why I'm here,
I came down here to tell you it rains in heaven all day long,
I wanna find you so bad and let you know I'm miserable up here without you,

Found my way back in the dark tonight,
Couldn't wake up not right next to you,
I'd trade forever to just hear you say the sound of my name,

But that's not why I'm here,
I came down here to tell you it rains in heaven all day long,
I wanna find you so bad and let you know I'm miserable up here without you,

Don't believe that it's better when you leave everything behind,
Don't believe that the weather is perfect the day that you die,
Don't believe that the weather is perfect the day that you die,

I came down here to tell you it rains in heaven all day long,
I wanna find you so bad and let you know I'm miserable up here without you,

Don't believe that the weather is perfect the day that you die

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The End Of Fraud

I’m leaving again
For the second time around
You better believe
That this was all just a joke to me
And as I look down on them
I repeat these words in my head
“They never heard one sound out of my mouth.
They never heard one sound.”

I saw pretty clear
That when I left
You all stayed the same
Now I think I believe
That I was never alive in the first place
They never heard one sound out of my mouth
They never heard one sound out of my mouth
They never heard one sound out of my mouth
They never heard one sound

Don’t believe that the weather is perfect the day that you die
Don’t believe that the weather is perfect the day that you die
Don’t believe that the weather is perfect the day that you die
Don’t believe that the weather is perfect the day that you die
Don’t believe that the weather is perfect the day that you die
Don’t believe that the weather is perfect the day that you die

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Car Underwater

Believe the news, I'm gone for good.
Call off the search, no one will know that I'm down here
Believe the note I left for you
You can't turn back the clocks, you can't pull me up from here, so don't try

I'm in a car underwater with time to kill, thinking back I forgot to tell you this
I didn't care that you left and abandoned me, what hurts more is I would still die for you.

I'm in a car underwater with time to kill, thinking back I forgot to tell you this
I didn't care that you left and abandoned me, what hurts more is I would still die for you.

Make time slower, give me longer.
It's too late for me, no one will know that I'm down here.
And believe your dreams of me sinking
so far, below, you can't pull me up from here so don't try.

In a car underwater with time to kill, thinking back I forgot to tell you this
I didn't care that you left and abandoned me, what hurts more is I would still die for you.

I'm in a car underwater with time to kill, thinking back I forgot to tell you this
I didn't care that you left and abandoned me, what hurts more is I would still die for you.

Leave it up to me. To burden you again.
This ones not your fault. Please forgive me.

Leave it up to me (leave it up to me). To burden you again (To burden you again).
This ones not your fault. So forget, so forget, so forget me.

Don't think back, don't think back of me at all.
Just let me go.
Don't think back, don't think back of me at all.
Just let me go.
Don't think back, don't think back of me at all.
Don't think back, don't think back of me at all.
Don't think back, don't think back of me at all.

I'm in a car underwater with time to kill, thinking back I forgot to tell you this
I didn't care that you left and abandoned me, what hurts more is I would still die for you.

I'm in a car underwater with time to kill, thinking back I forgot to tell you this
I didn't care that you left and abandoned me, what hurts more is I would still die for you.

and I would still die for you
I would still die for you
and I would still die for you
I would still die for you
and I would still die for you...

All The Above Songs are from Armor For Sleep

Well I am off.

The Day The Shadow Was Released

I ask you, "How could you understand? How could you understand the way I feel about god... How could you understand anything, about me at all..."

You just stand there and shrug your shoulders with the same unknowing look on your face that you always have when I see you. I tell you, "I am the wind, singing a sad song. I am a volcano, and i'll hurt you all."

You just smile like I said something funny. You tell me "Everything will be ok." Who are you to know? If you only knew what happened... My pride, ripped a hole in the world that set loose...




A shadow!





So you tell me how could you understand the way I feel about god! How could you understand anything, about me at all! I told you I am the wind, singing a sad song, a volcano, and I will hurt you all.

But will you listen? Do you hear the words I say? You are caught up in your rightiousness, too busy to notice. Too busy weaving a web of lies, self destruction. While you destroy yourself through denial I destroy myself through reality. How could you understand? I watch as illows and billows of smoke rise above the ruined ashes. I sail, to jaws of the dragon. I see the beast before me: A shadow, behind me and the only certainty is that I'll hurt you all... That I will hurt myself.

I Love Scrubs!

I seriously love Scrubs! I love the show so much. I have watched it so many times and I just can not get enough. The only thing I wish is that I had friends that watched it with me and loved it as much as I do. There are so many great lines in that series. So funny. Anyways I was going to write more but this typing is distracting me from Scrubs....

The time for sleep is now....

Take Her To The Music Store ~ From Autumn To Ashes

You break my heart into a thousand pieces, and you say it's becuase I deserve better?
You break my heart
You break my heart
You break my heart
You break my heart into a thousand pieces, and you say it's becuase I deserve better?

Emotionless grey skies bleed somber dreams of sorrow
Blackened unseen heart tears a virgins godlike innocence from its pristine palace
Paint sarcastic smiles upon new wounds
Tears of misery stain scar filled minds
Hatred new like tomorrow flows from bitter memories
Purity now embraced by sinful ideals why
Lifeless tomb rests weary with prowling peering eyes
Silence falls upon deaf ears covered by night
Alone in thought, shaking
Biting tongues of lead at unfit moments
Screaming disbelief with no faith in site

[and her disgust has no borders, no limits to strive for,
she bends and breaks to the rules set by the weak]

She's finally seen she's a beautiful girl with a smile so grand she could stop the world
Stolen her skin he sews her mouth shut, means nothing to him, her screams just die out
As she cries out here voice dies out
As she cries out her voice dies out
Love once inside her heart, lay in my hands
Was it asked for?
Was it implied?
What could have been done?
Inside her mind dies.

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Today
A Day of Nothingness
I didn't really do anything. Still was feeling emo so I ended up renting some movies and watching them. It was good times. I am about to head to bed. Hopefully I can wake up for church tomorrow. Anyways I wanted to blog about a thought I had. Hopefully I can get it out of my head properly.

WARNING! The following may possibly give away important plot information for Aeon Flux/Existenz/The BoogeyMan; so if you plan to watch these movies untainted then DO NOT read farther.

If you would like to read some information that may help you understand what I am talking to then please visit the following links:

http://www.aeonflux.com/
http://www.haro-online.com/movies/existenz.html
http://www.sonypictures.com/movies/boogeyman/spinvision/boogeyman_home.html --> (Then Click on "about the movie")

You also can just Google the movies to read things about them (that is what I did to get those sites... my opinion and views may differ from the sites and I am not held accountable for the content)Once again I warn that there may be revealing plot information following.

Anyways now that I have that all out of the way...

First thought:
What if we could travel through closets and underbeds like in "The boogeyman"? Like for real! That would be so awesome! I would love it... feel free to comment or leave a message on the cbox to start a discussion about any of my "thoughts"

break for a song lyric interlude...why? because I can and I like this song and I am listening to it right now...

Sunrise, Sunset ~ Bright Eyes

Sunrise, sunset.
Sunrise, sunset.
Swiftly go the days.
Sunrise, sunset.
You wake up, then you undress.
It always is the same.
a sunrise and the sun sets.
You’re lying while you confess, keep trying to explain.
a sunrise and the sun sets you realize
then you forget what you’ve been trying to retain.
But everybody knows it’s all about the things
that get stuck inside of your head,
like the songs your roommate sings
a vision of her body as she stretches out on your bed.
and she raised her hands in the air asked you,
When was the last time you looked in the mirror?
cause you have changed.
Yeah, you have changed.
Sunrise, the sun sets.
You are hopeful and then you regret.
The circle never breaks.
With a sunrise and a sunset there’s a change of heart or address.
Is there nothing that remains?
For a sunrise or a sunset.
You’re manic or you’re depressed.
Will you ever feel ok?
for a sunrise or sunset, your lover is an actress.
Did you really think she’d stay?
For a sunrise or sunset.
You’re either coming or you just left but you’re always on the way.
Towards a sunrise or a sunset, a scribble or a sonnet.
They are really just the same.
To the sunrise and the sunset.
The master and his servant have exactly the same fate.
It’s a sunrise and a sunset.
From a cradle to a casket.
There’s no way to escape.
The sunrise and the sunset.
Hold your sadness like a puppet, keep putting on the play.
But everything you do is leading to the point
where you just won’t know what to do.
And at that moment you may laugh
but there is someone there who will be laughing louder than you.
So it’s true, the trick is complete.
become everything you said that you never would be.
You’re a fool! You’re a fool!
Sunrise, sunset.
Sunrise, sunset.
The sunrise and the sun sets.
Sunrise, sunset.
Sunrise, the sun sets.
Sunrise, the sun sets.
Sunrise, sunset.
Go home to your apartment
put the cassette in the tape deck and let that fever play.
Sunrise, sunset.
Where are you Arienette?
Where are you Arienette?

Second thought:
I was watching Boogeyman and there was an actor in the movie that reminded me of someone I know. This got me to thinking about Aeon Flux and the issues in it. What if some of those things were true? Like what if people we "think we have seen before" and the people who "look familiar" or we "feel" we "know" actually are people we have ran across before in former lives. I know this thought would be hard to mesh with religion... or christianity anyways but... well what if God created only an X number of people and spirits get recycled or can go back (like in What Dreams May Come) We are not really products of our parents but rather products of spirits. Like our parents don't have a whole lot to do with who we are or how we look but rather it is just some ingenious planning to make sure we end up with "our dads nose" and "our moms eyes". We keep going through life until we have learned what it is we need to know for the after life. Now I don't know if I am getting this thought out properly or not. I do know however that there are alot of wholes in this thought like how does the population keep getting bigger and yada yada. Yea I know. Not my point. I'm not really trying to make a theology or anything here... only using my creative brain to think of interesting and creative thoughts so that I am not just a useless peice of stupid flesh. Anyways. The time for sleep is now!

Give Me A Reason, I'll Show You An Excuse

Destroyed by You ~ MxPx

Can someone tell me why I'm feeling this way?
Can someone tell me why this world is so grey?
It's never just black and white
So much went on tonight
was I wrong or was I right?
You think the whole world revolves around your head
You are ignoring me, you haven't heard a word I've just said
Why can't I just pull myself together?
What's done is done, never say never
Can someone tell me why I'm feeling this way?
Can someone tell me why this world is so grey?
It's never just black and white
So much went on tonight
was I wrong or was I right?
Always look for good in the bad
learn from the mistakes that I have had
I re and re-learn
to let it go
talk is easy
but it's so hard to show
NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NANA
NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NANA

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Ok so right now I could be sleeping... or I could be writing up all the songs that totally fit my mood mentality. But instead I am not going to, rather I am just going to listen to them and enjoy them and mope around my dark basement. As you may have already deduced from the mood of todays blog I am feeling grey. Possibly blue if I could see in color. Misplaced Memories I've retraced my steps so many times, maybe the answers are right here in front of me. Wow. MxPx really hits the nail on the head so many times, in so many songs. And Gatsbys American Dream... just perfect. It seems just like yesterday...

Blah, I seem to be getting into bad moods more and more lately... and they keep getting worse. Nobody has prolly noticed. I am 2. If you understand. It is so weird. Take a closer look. If I went into detail I could rant for hours on hours, but alot of it is just stupid sort of... I dunno. If I were to burst like the dam I am... my teeth would be all over the floor. If you understand. Thats something I say alot. Maybe you have noticed, maybe you have not.

Ok so right now I could be sleeping... or I could be writing up all the songs that totally fit my mood mentality. But instead I am not going to, rather I am just going to listen to them and enjoy them and chill out in my awesome basement. As you may have already deduced from the mood of todays blog I am feeling good. Possibly great if I could go that far. This life is good, the road is clear, it's time to shift into high gear, Everything we're passing fades, it's whats inside our hearts that stays. Wow. MxPx really hits the nail on the head so many times, in so many songs. And Gatsbys American Dream... just perfect. It seems just like yesterday...

Yea, I seem to be getting into a good mood more and more lately... and they keep getting better. Nobody has prolly noticed. I am 2. If you understand. It is so weird. Take a closer look. If I went into detail I could rant for hours on hours, but alot of it is just stupid sort of... I dunno. If I were to burst like the dam I am.... my teeth would be all over the floor. If you understand. Thats something I say alot. Maybe you have noticed, maybe you have not.

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Prove it to the World ~ MxPx


I can't hold back
I can't relax
I can't let go
I can't say no
Can't take the time
Can't make you mine
Can't know for sure
Can't find the cure

And what does this all mean?
And after all I've seen

I'm gonna prove it to the world
I'm gonna prove it to the world
I'm gonna prove it to the world
So here I go

Can't ascertain
I can't refrain
I can't decline
I won't fall behind
I won't sit down
I won't leave town
I can't deny
And I won't cry

And what does this all mean?
And after all I've seen

I'm gonna prove it to the world
I'm gonna prove it to the world
I'm gonna prove it to the world
So here I go
Uh oh oh. . .

Gatsbys American Dream Rules, and... stuff drools? Yea I got nothing...

It has been a little while since I have blogged, I mean I posted songs by the awesome band GAD, but not a real blog. Maybe thats because I am busy or don't have time or (isn't that, like the same thing? [SHUTUP! I'm tired]) cause I am STILL sick! The sickness came back. It saddens me. I have a pretty crappy day today. Feeling sick didn't help and almost fainting down my stairs was not cool. Today was just the culmination of thoughts and feelings I guess though. I didn't feel like going to school or getting out of bed but I still got up and was all ready to go when I almost fainted down my stairs and my nose continued running like the day before and my eyes started watering. And here I had thought this cold was leaving me, but no it grabs me and pulls me down when all I need is a lift. Not that anything is really bad in my life just, you know, that inner turmoil thing... maybe you don't know. Anyways yea. After that I spent the rest of the day at the doctors office where I got a jerk of a doctor. I got meds but he wouldn't tell me what sickness I had! He was just like these will help and left. But yea I ended up not going to work. I went to the school... I prolly should have slept but instead I decided to be around people... I was in one of those moods where I want others around but at the same time I could not stand people. I chatted with Rhiannon and that was good. It actually picked up my mood for the evening, well part of it I anyways. But now I am home and the sames things are plagueing me. Yea... I can't really sleep... I wonder if it is the meds. My eyes are all blurry... thats not cool... on my meds container it says to not eat or drink grapfruit (juice) while on this medication... interesting. Anyways my head is wandering and I am typing random things that I am not even thinking about, my nose hurts, my ears are irritating me... I think I am going to jab a pen in each nostril and each ear and then go to bed. Good night...